My spiritual journey began in my early 30’s. After a childhood of low self esteem and being out of touch with my feelings, I had become more comfortable with myself and confident. I was beginning to feel I belonged in the world and could contribute. I later realized that this was growth and maturity of my ego.
Just when I thought I had achieved my goals and saw a great future ahead of me, I became ill. I was unable to walk and had extreme fatigue. I was given a diagnosis of multiple sclerosis. After about a month, I was able to walk again, but I was still unable to do much physically. I spent a year being depressed. My children went to day care. I was unable to work and I felt I was nothing but a burden to my husband. About a year after my illness began, my nine year old daughter was in a crosswalk and was hit by a car. She died the next day. I was even more depressed.
With great grace the universe provided me with the gift of a very spiritual psychiatrist. Just as I had strengthened my ego in my twenties, now it was time to allow my spiritual part to blossom. As I worked with him a whole new world opened up to me. I discovered that my identity and sense of value was in doing, and not just doing, but in taking care of other people. Now that I was unable to “do” I felt I had no value. I began to explore “being”. That was the beginning of my spiritual journey. I regained my physical strength, went to graduate school and went back to work. Now, however, everything was from the perspective of the value of being.
I have been exploring “being” and “doing from the place of being” for almost thirty years. I see my role now as being a healer in the world, and I take every opportunity as I go through my day to heal the earth and people in it. A number of years ago I discovered Interfaith Community Sanctuary. In exploring “being” I had looked at Buddhist, Jewish, Hindu, Christian mysticism and Sufi thought. They all spoke to me, especially the mystical traditions. I did not find one particular religion or tradition had the answer and there were many similarities.
I felt at home at ICS immediately. It is a church which honors the sacred in everything, and supports all seekers on their path. The services vary from Sunday to Sunday but they all support involvement from the congregants. What unfolds often depends upon who is there. I am always encouraged to find my inner connection and guidance and I feel supported, valued and not judged by those around me. Growth is definitely encouraged, and my being flourishe